03/21/2025
one year has come and excelled poorly
with the exception of that post i made and deleted about my yurijam game (still viewable on post archive page), i've hardly touched this site in like a year. what the hell have i been up to? have i been toiling away on sneeders? recording that EP that's been half-written since 2021? some secret third thing?
no lmao
no one asked any of those questions, but i've been doing nothing.
okay i have been doing something, but it's felt like nothing, since the whole process has mostly comprised of waiting and dealing with bureaucratic gatekeepy shit. i'm getting that surgery where they peel off your face and grind your skull to dust and stick it back on. it's less than a week away. i told my surgeon to give me a lil flower that grows out of my head while he's at it, but he's probably gonna forget. and then after all that, i'm gonna keep doing nothing because i need to grind at my job a little longer for *another* surgery before i get the hell out of there. i hate insurance.
but getting all of that out of the way and quitting my job won't magically instill me with some feeling of purpose or whatever. i'll probably end up feeling even more directionless than before. being preoccupied with all of this has been a very convenient excuse for doing fucking nothing with my time.
